{Cover Reveal} Imperfect Truth by Ava Harrison (@AvaHarrison333)

4/30/2015

I’m a blogger. He’s a writer.

He was my weakness.

I was his muse.

Once upon a time my marriage was built on love...

Until it wasn’t.

Where had we gone wrong?

I had given up hope…

But then he messaged me,

And his words intoxicated me.

Made me believe in love again.

Made me believe in truth.

My imperfect truth…

Exclusive Excerpt -

The Beginning…

I don’t remember the last time I could truly say I loved my husband. To be completely frank, I believe it was before we even got married. You can hate me for this, but until you’ve walked a mile in my shoes you will never really know why I’ve done the things I’ve done.

Often I stare at him from across the room and repulsion courses through my veins, a feeling of dread, that this is what my life has become. I wonder why I can't just leave him. Why I can't find the strength to love myself enough and simply be happy.

Was my life pleasant before I met him? Was I content? What’s missing now? I’m pretty sure I’ve never truly been happy. I’ve always struggled to find where I belong, but how can I belong somewhere when I don’t fit anywhere?

Sometimes I find myself picking a fight with him just so he will talk to me. All I want is a little attention from him. Good or bad.

            It’s sick.

            I know.

But living in the land of indifference has changed me. I reside here day and night until the moment I snap from his indifference. Then I lash out, rebel against what has become this norm. Although it’s not right, the reprieve from the emptiness when we argue is welcome.

          If I left, would he follow me?

          Would he fight?

          Would he even notice?

About The Author -

Ava Harrison is a New Yorker, born and bred.

When she’s not journaling her life, you can find her window shopping, cooking dinner for her family, or curled up on her couch reading a book.