{Blog Tour & Book Review} Asking For It by Lilah Pace (@LilahPace @BerkleyRomance)

“This is who I am. This is what I want. Now I need a man dangerous enough to give it to me.” 

Graduate student Vivienne Charles is afraid of her own desires—ashamed to admit that she fantasizes about being taken by force, by a man who will claim her completely and without mercy. When the magnetic, mysterious Jonah Marks learns her secret, he makes an offer that stuns her: they will remain near-strangers to each other, and meet in secret so that he can fulfill her fantasy.

Their arrangement is twisted. The sex is incredible. And—despite their attempts to stay apart—soon their emotions are bound together as tightly as the rope around Vivienne’s wrists. But the secrets in their pasts threaten to turn their affair even darker...

Reader Advisory: Asking for It deals explicitly with fantasies of non-consensual sex. Readers sensitive to portrayals of non-consensual sex should be advised.

"The intensity of the pleasure I had with Jonah buoys me up. Even more important, though— I faced down my demons. I claimed what I really wanted. All these years I thought that fantasy would burn me. Instead I walked through the fire unscathed."

Vivienne Charles has lived in the shadow of shame ever since she was young girl.  She can’t explain why she feels the need to be overpowered, she only knows that in the moment that she is, she can finally let go. 

One night at a party, her ex-boyfriend drunkenly reveals her secret and he is overheard by the one man who isn’t afraid to help her explore her limits.  Together, they enter into a game so powerful and incendiary that it has the power to ruin lives and to heal broken souls.

Jonah Marks is an enigma that no one can seem to figure out.  Besides being wickedly intelligent and gorgeous, he seems to have wealth beyond what his position as a Professor can provide. 

He knows exactly what Viv wants and gives it to her in a way where she not only feels safe, but also desired.  But they both never expect what happens when they peel back that layers and expose their secrets that they find that their hearts are now on the line.

“I thought about you every night,” Jonah murmurs. “Most of the days. I dream about tearing that dress off your body. When I close my eyes I see you the way you were afterward. Wrecked. And what I want more than anything else is to wreck you all over again.”

Reading this book sparked so much in me.  It made think about a conversation that I consistently have with a dear friend who writes Erotica about how we both feel that in its truest form – Erotica is a feminist movement.

Let me explain.  Erotica, to me, is where women can finally own their sexuality and choose without guilt as men have since the beginning of time.  And Asking For It is the most dazzling example of that.

"It’s so hard to believe that someone might want me— all of me— fucked-up sexual desire, tangled family history, book-hoarding tendencies, everything. I never looked for that. I never even dared to dream about it. Now, with Jonah, I can finally start to ask myself what it would mean to be totally honest with another person. Right now, I know only one thing for sure: Whatever dark secrets Jonah has to tell, whatever his past has held, I can hear it. I won’t flinch, and I won’t turn back."

Yes, it’s disturbing and tragic.  But it’s also brutally honest and in the end, empowering.  That alone is why if you only read one book this year – make it this one…

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He rises from the bench as I walk to him, an old-fashioned, almost chivalrous gesture that touches me in a way I can't define. As we sit down together, he says, "Is everything all right?"

"No." I take a deep breath. "Jonah, I can't keep doing this. Meeting you. Playing out our – scenes. It has to stop."

At first he says nothing. His expression remains cool. Is he that controlled? Will he just get up and walk away like none of it ever happened?

But it couldn't have ended any other way.

Finally Jonah speaks. "You weren't unhappy with – what I did at the benefit."

"No." God, no. When I think about the way he slid his fingers inside my panties, I want to take back everything I've said, grab him by the collar and drag him into the nearest building for a quickie in the stairwell. It would be as scorching hot as every other time Jonah's put his hands on my skin.

And it would only be delaying the inevitable.

I take a deep breath. "This isn't about anything you did wrong. Okay? You've kept every promise. You made me feel safe at moments I don't think any other man could have, ever. And you –" My voice breaks. Dammit. I pull myself together. "You saw something in me I've always hated and made me feel less ashamed of it for a while. So thanks for that. And the sex. Definitely thanks for the sex."

My crooked smile doesn't fool him for a moment. Jonah leans forward; he brings his hand closer to me, as if he'll touch my shoulder, but rests it on the back of the bench instead. "Vivienne, what's wrong?"

This is normally where I bunt. Where I take the gentlest, easiest out for everyone involved, so we can walk away with no hurt feelings, no unresolved conflicts.

I've always thought of it as consideration, or poise. Doreen says it's dishonesty, and asks me what would happen if for once in my life I just told the ugly truth and let people deal with it.

Jonah already knows one of my uglier truths. What the hell.

"I thought I could have sex outside of a relationship, with no strings attached," I say. "I did in undergrad, like anyone else. Probably I could do it again with someone else. But you and me – it's not a normal situation. Not only because of, you know, the fantasy –" I glance around, but few students walk anywhere near us, and every single one is either wearing earbuds or absorbed in their cell phones. "It's more complicated than that."

"Our arrangement is simple," he says flatly. "We were very specific about what this would be and how we would handle it."

"This isn't about logistics." I look upward at a pale gray sky, the kind you see when the clouds have claimed the entire sky. Truth. Tell the real truth. "Jonah, every time I'm with you, it's more than sex. Every time, I turn myself over to you, completely. I have to give you total control, and total trust."

"I haven't abused that trust, have I?"

Shaking my head, I say, "No. But don't you see? I don't just fuck you, Jonah. I bare my soul to you. Then we go back to being almost strangers to each other. The disconnect is getting to me, and I don't think I can handle it anymore."

Despite all our rules and resolutions, I have begun to have feelings for Jonah. To feel jealous of other women he might touch. To want to have not just his body but his heart. That means I want too much. Which in turn means I have to get out, now.

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Lilah Pace is a pseudonym for a New York Times bestselling YA author. This is her first adult novel.

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